Earth From Above & The Problems Of Prediction

I have this philosophy in life, that maybe isn't concerned with day to day stuff like waking up or getting dressed, it is concerned with things which bore me or worry me or make me hesitant. It's sort of in two parts that are separate to each other in a way.


First Part:

I look at life in its entirety, the past makes up the present and the future is the present in my eyes too. In a sort of contradictory way I focus a lot on the present and my actions whilst taking into account the effects of my action, what made it and what will make it.

Take sex, for example, a lot of people I know adopt the attitude of "a shags a shag" which I too agree with. But I agree with it because I believe that overall in my life, if I shag some fuck ugly munter who looked like she had been attacked with a cheese grater, yeah I may get a lot of shit taken out of me, but ultimately will it effect my outcome in life, my final destination? Probably not, no ones going to come to my old people's home to visit and call me "Grater Graham" will they. Now I didn't shag that girl, and I don't know anyone who looks like that, but the point still stands. I don't give a shit about the present, yet I do give a shit about the present.

I look long-term, my brain has a way of creating thousands of different possibilities about a situation based on different decisions I make, therefore I don't need to worry about what's going to happen the next day if i do something because I already know and I don't care. I know it won't effect my long-term future so why shouldn't I do it.

So I sort of live in a prediction whilst focussing on the present, I'm sure you can understand. Of course there's the problem of prediction but I'm most usually right and when I'm wrong I learn from it and it just becomes another potential scenario. Making mistakes with things is great. I have a serious issue with being wrong, I hate it, but if I'm wrong due to ignorance or non-understanding or just not thinking that even existed, I embrace being wrong in that way.

Just like collecting stamps all your life, you think your set is complete and you are happy with it, then you find a stamp you don't have and it adds more of an aesthetic value to your collection because you know you're better off now than you were before.

Second Part:

When I'm walking somewhere and I know its going to take me a while, I just think "You're going to do it and soon you'll be sitting down thinking about this moment, and moments before this where you finished." and it makes that supposed long walk seem small because the amount of time that past between completing it and thinking about that is greater than the walk, it makes it look pathetic. Like being on the earth travelling you think its massive, then you go into space far away and look at the tiny speck that is our world and you realise how wrong you were about it being huge.