I'm Back

"Simon, I want you to look at me. Over here. I'm so glad you came. You must watch this. I don't know whether it will work as I've planned but isn't the view just great? I just can't wait to feel the wind through my hair. Simon, take a step forward, watch me fly!"

He stepped off the roof, and landed twenty storeys beneath me on the cold, hard concrete. But that took a couple of days at least - maybe even a week, I never counted. I just feel bad that everyone saw, well not everyone but enough people to make it spread. He jumped off it, what was he trying to prove?

That was about two years ago now, I think. He's on his feet again now though. He's got some pretty nasty scars, but he knows how to cover them.

He doesn't know why he jumped, even to this day. He still maintains the argument that he wasn't fully aware of his actions and that his thoughts were disturbed in some way. But who thinks about jumping off buildings?

He said that while he was falling, he never thought about the ground as he watched the sunset, and the trees and some of the buildings around him. He told me he just felt like he was flying, soaring through the air without a worry. But, he said that when he looked down he was reminded of what was coming towards me. "It felt as if I hit the ground so many times before I actually did." He revealed to me.

In some ways I pity him, but all the rest I just see him as a fool. He healed for a while actually, got a lot better. He was stuck in a wheel chair so he wasn't able to climb up any stairs, thank God. But last week he began to be able to use his legs again and they took him out of the wheel chair. I never thought he'd do it again.

It was just me to watch this time, no one else saw what he did. I don't think it will be as severe as last time, it was over in a few seconds - which made a change. I'm not going to visit, no one should be allowed to see him. He'll probably try and pervert their minds if they do.

I know there's talk at the hospital of sending him somewhere else when he gets better. Somewhere where he won't get out. I hope they do. For my sake. I can't fall of another building, it hurts too much.